There are oh so many reasons.
#1. I had a “redetermination” meeting with the state last week. I was told to fill out paperwork for food, and that insurance is now done online. I did the online insurance garbage a month ago. It literally took an hour. It was ridiculously stupid: page after page of how is this kid related to that kid, over and over. Today in the mail I get a letter telling me my insurance was dropped because I never filled out the paperwork. WTH?! And of course the office is closed today because this liberal pagan state celebrates religion when it suits them.
#2. At school a couple of days ago, I got a random phone call from a higher-up at support enforcement. She was most likely calling because at my meeting, I was told how I didn’t qualify for a 6-month assistance help, because I made over $900 a month. Yeah. $900 a month and you don’t qualify for help for a family of 9. I make slightly more than that. Anyway, this woman calls me and tells me she worked on my case in 2009, and that he’s a slick one. Okay. She said he owes over $88,000 – not counting what he owes the state when I was getting assistance. 21 lifetime months at $1000 a month. And this was after the whole fake-check thing, which she brought up in our conversation, because she was the one he tried to pass off two years of fake checks on. Another $80-odd thousand. So she concurred that they couldn’t find him, that he most likely procured himself a new SSN, and that I should call Social Security and claim him dead. Okay.
#3. We still have not heard the Nursing decisions. These also come from the state. Last year and the year before they heard by the 8th. The teachers were predicting it would be yesterday afternoon – because the school would be closed for a long weekend and couldn’t receive calls or emails from the disgruntled. Nothing. It is frustrating and downright maddening not to know. It’s been 6 months since we applied! I am a major planner and this is killing me. It will totally ruin my financial aid and schedule if it doesn’t happen. Aaarrgh!
#4. To live in CT one has to make at least 50K. And that is for a normal sized family to live in a normal neighborhood. I pretty much live in THE hood. It’s terrible the amount of action we’ve seen lately. Last week, across the street in the middle of the day, were 4 state cops with assault rifles. It turns out the people living there were selling stolen weapons. How nice. Now my kids can’t even take the dog out to pee.
I could go on, but I hate to sound like such a downer. It is Good Friday, though. I’m at work, which is preferable to being at home on this day of all days – my 6 foot boys are pretty cranky on fasting days.
I am looking forward to Easter – even without knowing. Ugh. I was hoping to buy champagne. But the oldest, who I haven’t seen in a while, will be sure to have good wine – it’s his specialty – and I managed to get a nitrite-free ham, and we will all be together. And that’s the most important thing.
Everything necessary for the Nursing Program application has to be in by November 1. Then sometime mid-April the decision committee will let you know. That is almost 6 months of waiting! I don’t do well with waiting. The denial letters went out March 31. Did not get one of those, thanks be to God. However, the stress of it all doesn’t end there, oh no. There is a fall date and a spring date. So if one IS in, one could get the required first aid, titers, physical, books and uniforms, and have a nice relaxing summer (not that working two jobs is relaxing) waiting for the first day of class late August.
Or one can waste away while one’s brain atrophies because one has nothing else at all to take and start late January.
I am told that there is no rhyme or reason which start date you get. Once, it was based on rank, now it’s 50/50. That is so all of the lottery kids don’t get put in Spring and make the class average lower. That is just not fair.
The stress of it all is killing me.
I wake up every morning and log on and check. I need to be first in line to be on the waitlist for fall when I am given spring, because some people do switch. Yes, I am expecting this. What in my life has ever gone easy?
Meanwhile, I have been busting my butt and my brain and not been here. Sorry. I know some of you like to keep in touch :) Two science classes with labs is a full time job. And I have a job, which is getting busier, and I picked up a summer job, on top. Of course that is after my classes end. All of my studying has been paying off (hopefully it will where it really matters). I actually got a 95 on my last Microbiology test. The class average was 75. My two girls who have been with me all semesters also got A’s. Our Anatomy teacher calls us the “Awesome Trio” and she offered all three of us teaching assistant jobs in lab this summer. It pays slightly less than the store where I work now, but will definitely look great on a resume. As will getting inducted into the National Honor Society – all three of us got that invitation, too.
So school is going well, although it takes a lot out of me. And there is a wedding coming up to look forward to in 3 weeks, and before that two birthdays and a Confirmation to celebrate. Oh, and Easter. I have been sorely slacking in the liturgical department. Does stressing and worrying and freaking out about the Nursing decision count for my Lent?
If you can all find a minute, please pray for fall – for one thing to go smoothly in my life. And pray that I survive the wait.
Because I am at work, and have my homework with me, I am stealing my son’s series on Morality he has been writing. I don’t think he’d mind me sharing. He only posts every couple months because he works a lot and doesn’t have internet at home.
Here is the first installment:
Morality, simply put, is belief put into action. Everyone has desires for what he believes is good and so what he believes, be it by faith or reason, has implications for how he decides what is a preferable choice or course of action. For example, if one believes that air conditioners are bad for one’s health and that person wants to preserve his health more than he wants to keep cool in the summer, that person will probably not buy and use an air conditioner, unless of course, some other thing leads him to believe that he should. Though this may perhaps seem to be a trivial example, it is still morality. What morality is not is an arbitrary set of rules. Even commandments and moral absolutes can be shown to be reasonable and representative of a conviction on what is good and desirable.
Every other weekend Grandma Sally takes the girls to Boston for their music lessons. It is such a blessing, I can’t even begin to tell you! Anyway, this past weekend the five youngest and I had the privilege of spending the night at Sally’s Boston house. Sally took those two (above enjoying a game of Battleship by the fire you can’t see) ahead of time while I was still at work, to have a lovely dinner of goat curry, salad, and pecan pie waiting for us when we arrived.
The next picture is hard to see – I didn’t bring my camera, I was using my not-smart phone – but it’s an original drawing by one of my favorite artists of all time. Anyone care to guess? Amazing. But then, everything about Sally is amazing. For instance, the next morning after Mass at St. Paul’s – which was quite lovely, their choir is amazing, we were given a tour of Harvard Yard. Sally is celebrating her 50th reunion as a Harvard Alumna this year! Her father taught there, Microbiology, can you believe it? Everyone knows that’s my favorite class
It seems that every single time I venture up to Boston, it pours. This time was no exception. But we had a wonderful time, regardless. The reason for our trip was The Magic Flute at Symphony Hall. It was absolutely wonderful. We all loved it!
We had awesome seats, too. We are so very thankful to have the incredible Sally in our lives – the Grandma my kids never had – she is so, so good to us!